Let's be honet

After starting this blog yesterday it got me to thinking about why I wanted to share my weight loss story with everyone. I must admit every other time I have ever tried to loose weight I have kept it is secret from everyone, this even included Jason! The first time I did WW It took me over three months to tell Jason!. I guess in the past I always thought people would see me as fat if I told them I was trying to loose weight. I have always seen myself as the girl who was "bigger" then the other girls, this was even in high school when I was playing four sports and working out 365 days a year. It always seemed like my friends were smaller in size/weight than I was so I always felt like the "fat cow." In my mind if I saw myself that way then clearing others did as well and if by some weird way they didn't see me that way and I was to tell them I was trying to loose weight then all of the sudden they would start to see me that way. I know to someone who has never struggled with their weight then this concept probably sounds like something out of left field. I don't know if other people have ever felt this way and I don't think there is any research on this but I have a sneaking suspicion that I am not the only person to ever feel this way and I think that is why I feel I need to journal my thoughts about my weight loss to the world. Again, I don't know if anyone will ever read this blog but at least I feel like by me putting myself out there and being downright honest with the world I will be more successful!

Have a wonderful weekend!